“Go again. Love your wife.”
For some people this may sound like an easy request of God to make, but some times it is very difficult to do. A few weeks ago God said it to me again. At the time I begrudgingly said yes.
Loving her wasn’t really in question; it was more about how God was asking me to love. I do my best to evaluate every situation and analyze the circumstances so that I can make the best choice possible. A few weeks ago I had weighed the options, looked at all possibilities and determined that I would do what I thought was best. In that moment, before I looked her in the eyes and said those words that would have broken her heart, “No, I won’t help you,” God’s words ripped through my mind, “Go again. Love your wife.”
I wrestled with it all night, and God revealed truths about her that I could not see. It’s not that I was being unloving, rather that my sight was incomplete. In turn, my actions, in light of revealed reality, would have very much been unloving. I write this now as just a reminder that God’s sight is with all things considered, and I am thankful that I listened. It’s something I’m learning and, as I trust God, I slowly have the chance to see how my knowledge and wisdom, even at their best, are so heavily impaired.